Ew

I spent the entire summer festering in self-doubt and persistently worrying about my senior year because honestly, leaving high schools scares the living hell out of me. For a 17 year old, I do have a lot of things going for me. I have a job, a car, I pay rent, and I almost entirely support myself, but besides that I have no direction and motivation whatsoever. I just want to be stagnant. The most difficult part of this year has been motivating myself to do school work and even think about capstone, graduation, and whatever. It’s all just so overwhelming and I hope for it to get better. Maybe I just haven’t gotten in the routine yet.